Sunday, April 25, 2010

Hold my hand

I talk a lot about how I'm so excited to graduate and move to Utah and start my internship and how thrilled I am that Ryan is starting at BYU and how wonderful everything is. And I am excited, and life is good, but to be honest, it's a little scary sometimes.

It's a little scary to go to church and not know anyone. It's kind of scary to stay home on the first day of school, to worry about having a job once the internship is over. None of it is terrifying, but it's unfamiliar, and that makes me a little uneasy.

This weekend, we spent a wonderful weekend with some of Ryan's mission friends and their wives at their mission president's house. We were finishing up a nice, relaxing break, but in the back of my mind, I was just worried about things. I have a gift for making little worries seem like the end of the world, and I was suppressing the urge to really let the stress of "What's going to happen next?" get to me.

It was like she was reading my mind. During scripture study, Sister Egan hit me with a simple statement:

"At some point, we're all like Adam and Eve walking into our own personal wilderness. And just like them, we hold hands and move forward."

What Ryan and I are doing isn't new. Through the ages, millions of men and women have shared my fears. It seems to me that those who lean on each other usually turn out all right. Better than all right.

Ryan and I aren't sure who initiated our first hand hold. I guess it doesn't really matter, as long as we keep holding on tight.
*wedding day pic by Camille

9 comments:

Chanae said...

I love this post. It's true, life throws you some hard obstacles but, together, you can overcome them. I've had a few bumps in the road as far as getting the after-college job and it's hard. But David constantly reassures me everything will be OK and it is. I hope you are having fun in Utah. We miss you guys!

Lylene said...

Life just keeps throwing us curves and unfamiliar, unsettling things; but you and Ryan are going to do amazing things I can't wait to see.

mckenzie said...

I know how you feel! You guys are going to do so great though. Maybe in this new ward you guys will only have one calling;)

acp08 said...

Love and needed this post.

Melissa said...

Love this post Breezy. You said it all.

ManualDoby08787 said...

天下沒有走不通的路,沒有克服不了的困難,沒有打不敗的敵人。..................................................

Sadie Lynn said...

So true and relevant to so many people. Those were the perfect words to help me keep going! Good luck with everything you and Ryan are both amazing and have so many great opportunities ahead of you. It is even better that you get to do them together.

韋于倫成 said...

我是天山,等待一輪明月。......................................................

韋于倫成 said...

培養健全孩子最好的方法是父母先成為健全的人。......................................................